Usually I try to keep my posts about events in our family's life and record fun times and such; but tonight I'm changing the focus a bit, just for true journaling purposes.
Today was just one of those days. I had a bad attitude and really had no reason for it (other than a headache, which these days is common. Some women are nauseated during pregnancy; not me, I'm of the headache variety). This makes mothering difficult. I was short tempered and unkind for much of the day. At the end of it, before Matt got home, I said to Wes and Kate, "I haven't been a very good mom today." They both agreed and said I hadn't. That made me laugh a little and then scold myself for such behavior. They (the twins) are pretty active by themselves, but you add in the synergistic energy of them together feeding off each other and you're in for more than a ball or explosion of fire.
Pre-teens and teenagers (I admit I was one of them), often wish for twins. I even had a Young Woman once tell me she wanted sextuplets. And it is true ... there's a ton of attention given to you and them, especially during pregnancy and as babies, and it's really a lot of fun. I would do it again all over. But boy, is it hard. I guess if you had mild children, it wouldn't be as much of a deal.
So that's that. Just some thoughts of today. No call for sympathy, just me documenting feelings during this short stage of life.
I think I'm about to embark on a study of motherhood. I'm leaning toward Ensign articles. So if there are suggestions in that arena, bring them on!
I think I need a cookie.
2 years ago